Transition

Back to almost one year ago when i had the most difficult decision to make concerning my future. Should i go or should i stay...? Most people said...think again carefully and not to go. But i believe i can do it myself, eventhough so faraway from all of them people who always love me and keep me in their mind. I kept telling myself, just move on dont give up....once you turn back you would not be able to step forward.

So here i am, in another world so faraway from home......
Looking back at my past keeping alive all beloved people in my mind to move forward stronger. Trying to retrieve all of old files about them, keeping me warm in my heart from winter. There is sadness coloring my self, all good times good memories just come out make me sad to realize that i dont have those anymore now. Every day every night those memories attack me wildly at my dreams, make me feel good and also make me sad. I wish i have that normal life already, but also i dont want my current life replace them. No, no way.... Those memories are just too sweet and always remind me how happy i was around my family and friends.

Finally in this case, i was right....i have to stand by myself. I cant rely on somebody else to make things right. There is a time when you have to be totally alone no one understand what you are going through. Nobody, except yourself.

That is the time when you have to rethink your vision of life, build new one. Make yourself feel better knowing that there is still hope everything will be good eventually.
Keep in faith that something good will come good, and i came here with good intention. So must be something will come good in time, still a mistery.

Something good is precious, only work for who work on it and belief in it.
Hopefully i am the right one to do that, strong enough to struggle holding my faith.